Friendship

I'm lookin' for some long time friends.
I'm lookin' for some long time friends.
Life's a long and twisting road, many turns and unseen bends.
So I'm lookin' for some long time friends.

I remember singing that song at my elementary school graduation, and wondering if I would ever find genuine friendships. Would I ever stop feeling so different from everyone else? Would I ever feel like a belonged somewhere?

Almost twenty years later, I still often wonder about friendship. I do have a few genuine friends who I can truly depend on, but now live on the other side of the country from most of them. And the void of genuine conversations has been the hardest to get used to. 

I understand that, when you're first meeting someone, you don't discuss your deepest struggles. But, since all of my relationships are new, I have a lot of conversations about the weather and not many conversations about what truly makes us tick. 

This is why, when I came home from Soul Camp, I had such a hard time adjusting back to reality. For a week, I was safe to have genuine conversations with people, and when I got back to "reality" I realized how much I missed it. To bring this into my life, I am working harder to stay connected to friends via technology, and have decided to make this blog much more personal than I originally intended. Because, if I want to know what's really going on in other people's lives, a good place to start is sharing my own.

What's going on in your life? Not the weather, what's really going on? How are you today?