I've recently been thinking about the in between. The time when you are considering something new, but haven't made up your mind yet. I had an unbearably hard time with the in between when I first graduated from undergrad. I had worked so hard for my prestigious education and had all of these dreams, but had no idea what to do and felt completely unprepared. I felt let down by my university - they taught me how to analyze history, but I had no idea how to analyze myself. The first four years after college were the hardest years of my life because I was so uncomfortable with not knowing what to do next. I was so overwhelmed and didn't know where to go.
Now, I have become much more comfortable with the in between, even though it still triggers me every time. I wonder if it's my fault that I keep on wanting to explore more, and that I keep wondering what else is in store.
My new philosophy is that, if you're not in the in between and uncomfortable, you probably aren't growing. Yes there are times when it is important to give yourself the space to be proud of yourself, but if you're not pushing yourself, then what's the point?
