Today started so well. I got up early and meditated, I listened to an Oprah podcast on my walk to the train, and I even saw a rainbow! I was feeling in the flow and inspired. I felt like I was on the cusp of a break through. I didn’t know what I was about to figure out, but I knew it was meaningful. I knew that I needed to take some time for myself and that something would come through.
But then I walked through my office door and all of that changed. By the time I put away my coat and turned on my computer, my work day had already started. And it was a stressful day of back-to-back meetings from 9 until 3 pm. And, even though the meetings were great and I was able to accomplish a good amount at work, I ended the day in a bad mood.
I was in a bad mood because I never had time for myself. And I know that it’s no one’s fault but my own. I could have said no to something or taken time between meetings.
And I ended up so frazzled that now I am writing something that I know is not what I was meant to write today. I’m trying to tell myself that it’s okay because I needed to be reminded of this lesson and because we all need to practice protecting our time. We can play creatively with the field of time when we practice mindfulness. And today I let my day happen to me instead of creating my day and playing with time.
Did you control your day or did your day control you?